He
slid his fingers deep inside and a strange sensation washed down
her spine. He moved expertly and well. In and out. With rhythmic,
sensual thrusts. In and out. Again and again. In and out. Suzanne
focused on the water glistening off the man's strong masculine hands.
There was something about his touch, the way he rubbed the cloth
over the smooth glassy surface of the tumbler as if it were a prized
specimen. He forced it over the rotating sponge, dipped it in clear
hot water, and started the process all over again. The man continued
his ritual, washing and rinsing until all the glassware was stacked
clean and sparkling against the wall. He wiped the damp towel along
the mahogany counter until it, too, glistened like the crystal.
He glanced at her. For a brief instant, his gaze locked with hers
and she experienced the same flash of heat, again. She averted her
eyes in an effort to keep her thoughts from straying in a dangerous
direction. Hot, steamy, four-alarm-fire thoughts weakened her resolve.
The sudden urge to giggle overwhelmed her. Ridiculous. It wouldn't
do for a sex therapist to lose sight of her purpose. Hoping for
a better look, Suzanne removed her reading glasses, batted a wayward
curl, and leaned forward. There was something about the way his
biceps flexed when he rubbed hard against the surface of the polished
wood. He was tall and good looking, not in a movie star handsome
kind of way, but subliminally, on another level, a darker and far
more dangerous one. His body had the look of natural strength, not
from hours spent in a gym, but from real work. Muscle-forming, back
breaking work. Visions of his shirtless torso skittered across her
mind. She was in the Wild West and he was a cowboy. A sheep-dipped,
tanned-hide, dyed-in-the-wool specimen of manly man. Yee-haw!
Desultory
strains of Alan Jackson reverberated around the room and warmed
the very marrow of her bones. Couples merged and booted males roamed
in search of females.
'Hey
there, sweet thing," a slurred voice from a corner close by
drew her attention.
"Wanna
dance?"
Two
girls glanced at each other and giggled when a third stood and followed
him into the crowd of two-stepping twosomes. Yes, Cody, Wyoming
was the heart of rodeo country and the last bastion of he-men. She'd
interviewed jocks in every profession: race car drivers, bullfighters,
wrestlers, pro-baseball, basketball, and football players. Contacts
from her postgraduate days had proven invaluable for getting inside
the sports world. Always it had been the personal physician who'd
made the introductions and eased the way for her interviews. And
it had been easy. That is until her colleague, mentor, and onetime
lover, William Addison, had laughingly suggested she end her book
with a chapter on spinal injuries in the macho of all macho-men,
the cowboy. She hadn't really needed another chapter. Although,
she had to agree, it would round the book out nicely.
Here
she was in Wyoming, sitting in a bar or was it a saloon? She stared
at the pine-knotted walls papered in animal skins, while fantasies
of bestseller lists filled her thoughts. Sex books usually did quite
well.
Suzanne glanced down at her notepad and jotted a few more lines.
Taboo among peer groups, male dysfunction is a subject that has
little collected data since males rarely seek out medical attention.
Dysfunction can have a number of causes from clinical to psychological.
It is in extreme cases of spinal injuries----
"Excuse
me."
Suzanne
glanced up, straight into the raven eyes of the man she'd been staring
at earlier. Staring wasn't exactly the right word. Ogling was more
like it.
'Need
something?" The hard angles of his face and deep dark eyes
stirred something in the pit of her stomach. A thought flashed through
her mind. Oh, yes, cowboy. You've got exactly what I need. "I
suppose I should order?"
"It's
your call--" a sassy smile crossed his lips as if he'd read
her thoughts--" just want to make sure you're taken care of."
Yeah,
she'd just bet he did. She glanced around the room. Suzanne straightened
her back and squared her shoulders. Well, that was his mistake.
He might be interesting and if it had been any other time ... but
she was here for business. Pleasure always complicated things.
"So,
you want a drink or what?" His voice had turned into a shout
competing with the excited whoo-haas of the line-dancers who were
obviously enjoying themselves.
"I--ah--no.
Sure." Suzanne slid her tongue across her lips. "A cold
beer would taste wonderful. Yes. I'll have a beer." It wasn't
a Cosmopolitan, her drink of choice in the city, but here, in this
atmosphere, beer seemed exactly right.
He
turned, strode over to the tap, and pulled the handle tipping the
glass as the amber liquid rose to the top with only a slight head.
Perfection. Like the guy who poured it. Suzanne blinked and shook
her head. He was definitely special in the man department. But,
over the last six months, it had been raining men, and she was without
an umbrella. Like the song, the urge to shout Hallelujah overtook
her.
She'd
spent countless hours in locker rooms, dug outs, pit stops and sports
bars. Up to her neck in tall lanky ones, short perfectly proportioned
ones, muscle-bound Schwartzenegger ones. Gorgeous, macho men. And
so far, throughout the duration of her book, she'd been immune to
their charms. So why did this lone cowboy affect her to the point
of distraction? She simply wouldn't think about that. She needed
to find a willing subject--some cowboy rodeo stud who'd sustained
a spinal injury of some sort. She didn't want serious injuries such
as paraplegia, but something like residual impotence, temporary
or permanent. A man who was strong enough emotionally to bare his
soul and talk about his personal problems, if he had any, ones that
affected a most delicate and protected part of the male anatomy.
Problems those men went to great lengths to hide. And with her book,
she'd help countless people who suffered in silence, not to mention
increased credibility as a psychologist; and then there was ...
Oprah.
But
so far, she'd struck out. Cody physicians hadn't been helpful in
finding her any spinal injuries. Cowboys were made out of steel.
It had been the same all across Wyoming--and she'd been in just
about every town--she still hadn't found a single man willing to
talk about any sort of injuries, spinal or otherwise that affected
his libido.
Okay,
so maybe there were no dysfunctional cowboys in the Rodeo State.
Maybe they just didn't have those problems? Defeat? Not exactly.
She could accept striking out. There wasn't anything here for her
except that gorgeous specimen behind the bar. But ogling him wasn't
going to get her book written. She might as well go back home, face
her editor, and leave out that chapter.
"Hey
there," a high voice cut through the noise. "You been
helped?" Tall, and willowy, the waitress was a perfect example
of a pretty, western barmaid, a Western drawl and big hair-crimson
curls. Actually, the girl reminded her more of Texas than Wyoming.
"Whew!"
She slid her tray on the bar and fanned herself. "It's awfully
crowded tonight." She reached over, picked up Suzanne's notebook,
and rifled the pages. "You a reporter?"
"I--ah.
No." Suzanne smiled and captured her book back.
"So,
what're you writing? A book?"
"Not
exactly." Suzanne closed her notes and leaned on it. "It's
research on spinal injuries. I'm a psychologist." She stuck
out her hand. "Suzanne Grey."
"How'ya
doin'?" The girl returned the handshake. "Arielle Payne."
Her eyes rounded in obvious surprise. "Wow! Research huh? Here?
In Cody?"
Could
this be the opportunity she'd had been waiting for? Did Arielle
know someone who might be able to help her? "Yes, it's rather
delicate research, but I could sure use some information--that is,
if you'd be willing."
Arielle
leaned on the bar and rested her chin on her hand. "What kind
of research?"
"Vital."
Suzanne smiled and glanced down at her notes.
"Oh
Yeah?"
"Nothing
too complicated. Like what makes a cowboy tick? Where they hang
out? How do they maintain their threshold for pain and stamina?
What they do for fun? And, possibly the name of that bartender over
there?" Suzanne slanted her gaze toward the man in question
and smiled.
Arielle
eyed her quizzically, and smiled back. "Well, I guess--What
do you need the information for?"
"A
book I'm writing on spinal injuries and their contribution to male
dysfunction."
Arielle
glanced in the direction of Suzanne's gaze and turned back. "Dysfunction?
All we've got here is the rodeo. Are you writing about rodeo dysfunction?"
Suzanne
hadn't heard that one before. She lowered her voice. "Sexual."
Arielle's
eyes widened and she leaned forward. "Sexual? And you plan
to study that here?" Her smile widened into a light musical
laugh. "In Cody?" Suzanne nodded. "How?"
"I'd
like to talk to--" Suzanne leaned forward, "--know of
any cowboy who'd be willing to bare his soul--know anyone who has
sustained a spinal injury?"
Arielle's
eyes grew wide. "Oh, cowboys don't--" A sly smile crossed
her face and she leaned forward in a conspiratorial manner. "Well
... there's Matt over there."
"The
bartender?"
Arielle
nodded toward the tall lanky man at the end of the bar. "Matthew
McKenna. He's not really the bartender. He's your cowboy."
"My
cowboy?"
"The
one you've been looking for. The owner, Ray, had a car accident
and he's covered in plaster. Matt's doing him a favor by keeping
things going till he gets back on his feet."
"Him?"
Suzanne glanced over at Matt who was busy installing a keg from
behind the bar. His biceps flexed beneath his shirt as he lifted
the heavy barrel in place. "But how is he my cowboy? Did he
have a spinal injury? He has a sex-- a problem?"
"Well,
not exactly," Arielle said coyly. "But, he was stepped
on by a bull a few years back and--well ... you know"
"Stepped
on? Where?"
"You
know," Arielle nodded her head and winked. "In a private
place."
"I
think I understand."
"He's
very sensitive. Won't talk about it. Not even to his own brother."
She flashed Suzanne a knowing look. "I'll introduce you."
"What?"
Suzanne said.
"You
know." Arielle nodded. "You can talk to him. Gain his
confidence ...about his problem. I'm sure it hurts to see others
having a good time when he can't." She raised her eyebrows
in a knowing look and Suzanne understood everything. This was perfect.
He was perfect. From his outward machismo to his hidden secret.
She'd be able to observe and interview. Diagnose and treat. That
is, if she could get him to trust her enough.
Odd,
he seemed so at home here in this hedonistic environment, not at
all dysfunctional. Funny, all her vibes were off. Sensuality radiated
about him. But looks were often deceiving. And in this place with
the scent of musk and leather and heat all around, it would be easy
to get misdirected vibes. Still, there was something about leather
and man and nature especially in the wilds of Wyoming.